“I was so scared of seeing him in my nightmares that I forgot about seeing him in my dreams.”
Since then, she’s been very open about her grief. A few months ago, she shared, “When I’m old and grey, I will look back on the last two months as being brutal, exhausting, sad, physically challenging, [and] mentally painful bitches of a couple months.”
She’s also explained that her lingering baby bump is a frustrating reminder of “what could have been.”
After sharing that the baby would have been here any day now, she said, “I am so full of regret that I didn’t look at his face when he was born. I was so scared of seeing him in my nightmares that I forgot about seeing him in my dreams. I hurt every day from that remorse.”
She called this month a “tough reminder” and said, “I thought the worst was over, but I guess life and emotions aren’t on any sort of schedule.”
“I love you, Jack. I miss you so, so much,” she concluded.
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